Against All Odds
Can I let you in on a little secret? This week the hubs and I had a little come to Jesus moment. Okay, a BIG come to Jesus moment. I’ll fill you in.
The summer seasons are always our busiest. Most of our clients are getting married over the summer and their peak time is June. Not to mention, my husband is finishing up his dissertation papers and we added a baby into mix. (Who, by the way, is the cutest baby to ever live. Fact. Not opinion.) We are also launching several stationery lines, trying to spend time with family in other states, attempting our very own family vacation, small group, church activities, book club, art classes, etc.. The list is endless.
Every day that passed, we found ourselves becoming moodier than the day before. In fact, I would go as far to say that we were grumbling. A LOT. We were grumbling about about work, lack of time, the stresses of parenthood, everything and anything. It got to the point that we were even snapping at each other.
We both had this feeling that we always had to be “on”. You know the feeling? You’re running 90 miles an hour and can’t hit the breaks. The hubs didn’t feel like he was getting enough time to work on his paper. I was feeling like I was not getting enough time to work on my new product line. We both were feeling like we weren’t getting enough time with our little girl. And we wanted more time to do absolutely nothing.
We contemplated the idea of cutting something out to help slow things down a bit and while I strongly believe there is a place and time for that, I didn’t feel that that was the answer this time. He can’t just quite school. I can’t just quite my job. And we can’t just stop being parents. Not to mention, we are also going to be adding more kids into the mix as early as this fall and JM will be teaching more classes. If we think we are always “on” now, I don’t want to know what it will look like a few months from now.
The reality was that these were all the things we had once dreamed of. For years, my hubs had dreamed of getting his PhD and when he had finally been accepted to a program, we were ecstatic. I had dreamed of having a creative outlet that could call my “work’ and allow me to stay at home with kids. We were gifted with a beautiful baby girl. And we were on the journey to foster and adopt.
SO here comes the come to JC moment. Our attitudes stunk!
God had exceeded any of our dreams and it felt like we were ungrateful brats. I told JM we didn’t have to be on the path we were on if we did not want to be. He could quit school and go back to engineering. I could go back to working an 8 to 5. Pearl could go to daycare. We had a choice. What we chose was a different path than most. JM chose to dive into a calling that makes him come alive. That means that we had to move away from friends and family. I chose to have a creative career that allows me to stay with my sweet Pearl. That means that sometimes I am working around her nap times or until 3AM. We made decisions that required a sacrifice because they were worth it.
Reality check. If at any point in time we did not want the sacrifices that came along with living out our dreams, then we did not have to do them anymore. So what needed to change was our perspective, our attitudes and our hearts. It was time to start becoming grateful of our incredible journey. That means enjoying the fruits of our labor. Being incredible intentional with the times we were together and with Pearl.
Perhaps, it’s best said in Ecclesiastes 5: 18-20.
This was a great awakening. Loving what you do is a gift and a choice. I needed that! I pray that if you are feeling that today, that you experience the same heart change we did. Against all odds, we are in it for the long haul with our whole hearts.
Christy, JM and Pearl